i talked to syaz on the phone til 3 last nite! and the 2 of us were zombies when we were in sch just now haha. and i forgot half of what we talked abt, i think we just kept coming back to the same topic hehe. and some random stuff. im never talking to u on a sch nite ever agn syaz. HAH. i think we spent like 6hrs talking to each other. frm msn to the phone.
WOW, the wonders of technology.

i hate technology. it's evil.

"NUR DIYANAH ANWAR, you're under restrain from using technology. 1000000 hrs of corrective work order should you go against the law of diyland."

ahah. yayness.finally.
shall sleep now, night.
pls read frm prev entry. i dunno why, but i find myself blogging more often when ive decided (and stated) that i didnt want to so often. the irony of it all. anw, i was at that e-assessment for chem to do, and i was doing and doing, and at the 3rd attempt, suddenly dunno what happened my blackboard acct suddenly closed, and when i got in agn, they said there were no qns in the H1 chem thing. but i cld access the h2 one! omigosh. how ar? havent reached 15/15 yet eh. sheesh, sian to the max.nvm i try agn later.

and i havent been wearing my braces elastics AGAIN. i keep forgetting to wear them aft i eat, and before i sleep,and bringing them to sch doesnt necessarily mean that i'll rmb wearing it aft break. sheesh.

and im convinced that i walk straight, without noticing ppl ard me. i dao dunno how many ppl alr la.

and i need to do sth to help myself. i dont like this feeling of ALWAYS BEING BUSY AND NOT HAVING ANY TIME while the whole world thinks im super free. come on la, when is anyone free anymore?i shd be doing stuff now, rather than typing this for u to read haha.

ooh, i ran 2.4 yest. what else?? i like wednesdays. esp the time b4/aft tuition with syaz. cos all we talk abt is ... Actually we've been on the same topic since when we first started tuition, and we havent stopped:)) so syaz, dont give up ok??
and this week weve been meeting for mcs lotsa times cos of the exco thing, i love mcs lots. i think all of us can really connect with each other;it's not a place where i need to hide myself and prevent frm bursting out laughing, cos all of us are like that ahahaha.so fun:)) i love you guys lots. and that day syaz got me a green tea donut yummmm and we all shared that donut during mcs, and some of them didnt like it! :( said it tasted like plastic. but it's nice what. i like:( nvm. my fridge is flooding with greentea now i dunno how we're gonna finish it haha. nvm they do say its gd for the skin. asalkan its not like the air kurma. my dad bought it for hari raya and til now, there are still 2 bottles left undrunk.tastes like cough syrup u know, i finished a whole 1.5l bottle by myself last yr over a few days, and aft that i kinda felt i shdnt drink it anymore haha.its like drinking cough mixture bleagh eee.

u know what, i wanna run away frm everything, let go of all responsibilities, stay at home, and lock myself. i dont feel like gg to sch, really.i hate what im doing now. all the nonsense.its eating up my time, so whoever who still thinks i rot and not do anyth,i dunno what else to say to you. but when im at home, like that day when i skipped sch cos i was sick, i missed all the ppl in sch. incl the lect haha eeyer. i acty missed listening to fooseebon talking abt shooting his missiles la what's wrong with me?!i dont wanna go to sch THATS IT.

with that, i hereby conclude that im ponning wednesday. my mum's bday is this coming wed, so i guess i'll stay at home and 'guard the hse' while she go celebrate with her best friend haha. go go mummy, go :)) then thurs is a hol, fri ...hmm.. i think i shall just go la.saturday we're all gg for charmaine's dance concert, then sunday.im glad for sundays, cos theyre a consolation for me for the saturday that i wasted. so whoever who gets to go home early aft sch, count your luck man, i long for your spot.

ooh,i went to this flea market for awhile just now cos i felt so deprived of a good buy and just needed to buy sth (haha, only girls can relate to this), and i saw stuff that i liked! the thing abt flea markets is that theyre once a mth, last saturday of the mth, and half the time theyre selling rubbish. but when u find sth unique and sth u think is real cheap, then buy it. so there was this woman who was selling this dorothy perkins necklace for 5bucks, and im convinced she still hasnt used it yet, cos it still has the tag and the packaging and all.quite pretty you know, but i dunno what to wear it with yet.i rmbd seeing it at the store a longgggggg time ago, abt $25 hah. and the price tag behind the one i bought stated 25buckeroos, so yay.and this beady bracelet thing,$3.yay.woohoo.
the nxt time i shop, im going to a real shop.this was an emergency.

and i still dont understand why you acty read this post, since i think it's full of nonsense and totally not worth it. if you wanna know the real thing talk to me la, i think i need ppl to talk to. im getting bored now.and i got the song 'over you' playing in my head agn and agn.haiz.

now that its all said and done
i cant believe u were the one
to bring me up and let me down
like an old abandoned house
what u said when u left
just left me cold and outta breath
dunno what dunno what
guess u never were the best for meeeeeee
well i ......
........
LONG LONG TIME AGOOOOO
well im picking up the pieces and
spending all of these years putting
my heart back tgt
im slowly getting closure i
guess its finally over
im finally getting better
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
im over you
(guitar strum)
you put a hammer to these walls
drive the memories down the hall
packed ur bags and walked away
there was nth i cld say
when u slammed the front door shut
alot of others opened up
so did my eyes so i cld see
thate u nvr were the best for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
...

sth like that la sheesh. wednesdays are good days. and yesterday was a super day.
:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
haiz. yep yep yep i enjoyed it right through :))
abit confusing tho haha.
when someone went up there, someone became so excited huh? haha you shd know who u are!
keep hitting me in my seat la. told you he was gg up there to play the ... shall not give out too many clues. just hope no one has any misunderstandings and everyone gets it right. we dont want any REPLACEMENTS, do we?
mans, ure easily amused :P
i had a very nice view frm my seat tho, VERY NICE!
so coincidental. but nth happened.
but i dont think itll last for long,
so might as well enjoy it now.

i just read sth frm somewhere that kinda made me disappointed, but nvm. it's ok. wonder how they know?? wonder how ppl acty go ard making friends, when you dont have connections to them at all. must be some popularity thing.
went home, then went to dental before going for musicfest, syaz followed me heehee. then went back home agn to get our stuff, ate a little then ZOOOOM off we were. and we cabbed down to sch frm bedok int cos we were seriously gonna be late if we didnt.
then watched the thing, i really thought the breakdancing fingers video was gd la, or the last mv abt them dancing and dancing for the girl. and the idea abt that maths eqn ending up to be 1<3U was so smart!! so romantic you know, in a nerdy way. haha then all the slower songs were all so romantic and sweet and nice - the ones from the bands were quite deafening HAHAH i had a headache aft that. then i ate ALL my med in the dark ahah.luckily no overdose or sth. i thought i was gonna choke then MY hero down there had to save me HAHAHHAHAHAH fat hope la. dont think some of them 'deserved' to win tho, the rest were better. but nvm. and i think we'll be seeing more n.u.m. stuff ard sch . oooooooh i wanna use the vouchers and get some slippers!
and char, great job!!! so proud of you!! :)))))))))))))))))))))
and so i went home a happy girl, with lotsa sightings, but all .... haiz. no comments. mans, so near but yet so far haha. oh wells. maybe i blew it thats why.

apple bottom jeans, boots with the fur (with the fur), all the people in the club all looking at her.

haiz. pls, give me another sign. yep yep, ive resolved! and im not gonna let anything distract me (i think).
aptly said, syaz said i had to revive this thing. so here, im reviving. and ive resolved. and i'll remember my vow. all the Rs.
the reason i left this thing to rot for almost a mth was cos i dont find any use in using this thing anymore man. read prev entries pls. so, i'll only blog when i feel like it, when a decade passes and i SUDDENLY remembered i have THIS.
so now let's update my life.

DIY'S LIFE IN RETROSPECT:
she has :

• gone thru 5 wks of sch in term 2
• has a chem e-assessment next wk
• has a class chem test in wk 8
• just had that econs essay test on macro recessions & booms in sch frm 1.05pm to 1.50pm and finds that there was just too little time
• has a GP essay test this wed
• has to do poisson, normal? carboxylic acids? what abt econs and geog ar? oh gosh.

other than that, she has :

• TRIED desperately to forget stuff
• TRIED desperately to be less idealistic and rmb that reality is the way!
• TRIED desperately to tell herself that she needs to be more confident of herself. tsk tsk. it's shameful to say that you think you have such low esteem man.
• TRIED desperately to study. all you ppl who have evil intentions of NOT letting me study, curse you.

haiz i shall try to make myself happy haha. theyre not in caps anymore. shall keep it that way. good.

ooh i wanna tell i wanna tell!!! omg. my brother ( the one whom ALL OF YOU, dont deny, esp gummie, think is SO HANDSOME, urggh) has AN ADMIRER!! it's true! an admirer you know! as in, A-D-M-I-R-E-R!! oh gosh. his friend, who happens to have the same name as .... , got this sms saying that she liked my bro eeyer!come on man, he's only in sec 1!!!ok la, he's not bad la for a guy, maybe if i wasnt his sis i'd prob think he's cute, i mean i think he'd grow up to have what i want in a guy HEHE (acc to syaz, the physical attributes. but not yet la, he's not that tall yet, but catching up. and he doesnt have BROAD shoulders, yet, i think. do guys get broad shoulders when theyre born and grow up with it or do their shoulders grow wider as they get their growth spurt??hmm.) but he's getting darker i think, play too much in the sun! but too badla, he's my bro.i think girls nowadays are so much more daring than the guys, with the exception of me la. when i was their age, i was in a girls' school and not thinking of guys man. and now, 5 yrs later, when i think of guys, i dont think itll ever happen haiz. dont thses girls ever hammer into their head that the guys are supposed to make the first move?! a girl do that first then you're just plain ... AA! no offence to whoever who feels offended. hahahah no la, but, it's like the most courteous, most gracious, most righteous thing to do, it's like the fist step to show that the guy is serious and deserving of the girls' attention and care. and im not being biased, im not saying that girls cant do it, but think abt it. im a sucker for courtesy i think, and i only find this appropriate HAHA hmmph. i mean, the common thinking is that A GUY WOOS A GIRL, A GIRL SEDUCES A GUY!!! hello???? it makes sense!! no offence. but too bad, my bro says that the girl isnt that pretty hahah. sheesh, i want an admirer too (HAHAH FAT HOPE), one that is gentlemanly enough to take that first step. nvm la one fine day i hope, there's no reason for them to do so in the first place haha.

i cant wait for musicfest this fri. cant wait cant wait cant wait. only that i have to go thru PE before that thats all.

and i invented a new word haha, MAN + SIAN = MIAN!

apparently it means noodles, i was sighing during chem, and i wanted to say sian, but lately ive been saying mannnnnn, like oh man! , you know the other version of my oh shucks!, and it came out as MIANNNN. hahahhahaha i was laughing miannn. and tdy was supposed to be my no laughter day, with gummie. but what happened?? betrayal to my own mediocre efforts aha.

and we/i 'stirred' names tdy hahaha

eg :

GUMMIE-NAH

POLLY-NAH

CHARMI-NAH

DIYA-NAH

i think mine sounds the most politically correct hahahhaha

ooh one more

EDWIN-NAH (tts a girls' name by itself)

"gummie-nah la you! oh miannnnnz."

:))

ok lemme do other things now.

p.s. eh janice! joyjoy! if youre reading this, I MISS YOU BOTH LOTS!! talk to me lehh. i miss sg9!!! :((