ok, so i see that i havent said anything here for the past one week.
nothing much really, a week of highs and lows, like the turbulence in the waves.

"helicoidal motion"

anw, i think spongebob is cute, but i am cuter.
whatever diy, i think you're going bananas now. dont go nuts either.
i need to be studying now. BUT BEFORE I GO, READ THIS:

diy says:
WAH SO HOT
diy says:
I MELT
★ Janice. says:
hahahhahaha!!
★ Janice. says:
like... cristiano ronaldo!
diy says:
OMGOMGMGOMGOMGM
diy says:
U LIKE HIM?????
★ Janice. says:
lol. you dont?
diy says:
I LIKE!
★ Janice. says:
YAY!!!!!!
★ Janice. says:
diy says:
HE
diy says:
IS
diy says:
SO
diy says:
CUTE
diy says:
CUTEEEE!!!!!!!
diy says:
:X
★ Janice. says:
LOL
★ Janice. says:
and his body is damn damn damn good la!
★ Janice. says:
TANNED AND MUSCULAR
★ Janice. says:
*MELTS
diy says:
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
diy says:
omgomogmgmmgomgmg
diy says:
MUSCULAR
diy says:
I LIKE!!!!!
diy says:
u like also right??????
★ Janice. says:
YAH! but not THAT muscular lah
★ Janice. says:
hahhaa
diy says:
of course la!!!
diy says:
too muscular
diy says:
like wall like that
diy says:
not nice
diy says:
but not too lanky la
diy says:
like window frame
★ Janice. says:
hahahahhaha!!!!!!!'
★ Janice. says:
diy! you always makes me laugh la!!
★ Janice. says:
hahahahahhahaha
diy says:
IM LAUGHING TOO!!!!
diy says:
eh shall we blog abt this???

this is what i call boredom-between-2-girls-so-what-to-talk-abt?-what-else? girl talk.
this is what i call LIFE. ok. so i havent been to sch for two days. i guess it was a VERY GOOD BREAK FROM SCH. i actually feel relief. like sch was giving me all the stress, of having to face up to reality, and putting up a strong face and so on. but im fine now :) they say jc is the worse period in a singaporean student's education. i guess i agree.
skipping sch actually had its benefits.just nursing my sickness, i felt i was on holiday, with no worries abt not knowing how to answer should mrs mah ask me some chem qn etc etc.

no wonder ppl do it so often.

i was kinda on the verge of 'hating' sch if u ask me (cos of the results what else). and i love sch more than anything else in the world!
but what better way was it to skip sch then to get sick at the right time?
i guess i was lucky.


according to the MC, i had something called ACUTE PHARYNGITIS. whatever it was, it was making me sick alright. zoning out, staring into space and feeling weak was the routine of the 2 days i spent at home. and it wasnt like i did much at home anw.


BUT let me say something.


im confused with my medication. my antibiotics, i guess, were there to make me feel better and let me be immuned to whatever that was making me sick right? then why would it "cause nausea, colic or diarrhoea" as stated on the pack? like its giving me some new sickness to try out.

"hey diy, come try the nausea tea, the colic biscuit or the diarrhoea soup!
IT'S FREE!!"
*in that singsong voice you always hear in cartoons*



the irony.
am i supposed to recover or am i supposed to be sick?
that's the question. putting midyear results and pw aside, i think this week has been a tolerable week.

other than entertaining my constant self-criticisms and non-stop nagging that goes playing on in my head, i think im quite relaxed in the sense that i havent been able to control myself from doing what i shouldnt be doing, get what i mean?

this has to stop. NOW.

anw, we went out to celebrate lilin's bday tdy! (or rather, yesterday.)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILIN!! :)

so we went to eat at siamkitchen @suntec. pizza hut was first choice but it was full house, siann.
anw, the food there wasnt at all worth the bucks esp since it wasnt exactly the most appetising of all things you can find in singapore and somehow, i felt that tho it looked like it's filling, i feel the pangs of hunger now. like, to tell me that i didnt really enjoy much of the meal just now. oh well. plus i had to wait eons for my horfun look alike. $7.70 for that is just too much to swallow. inc 10% service charge & 7% gst. LUCKILY they didnt charge for the iced H2O. if not, i'd really not know what to say. not to mention all the angry angry ppl that we'd be aft that :P and they tried to charge us for the FREE tofu!! sheesh.

i sound like im whining, but im not! TODAY WAS FUN!! we had fun while waiting for the food :)

and like polly, i think that it would have been more fun if rr and edwin was there, since we'd be entertained by their nonsense. not that im saying that kenji doesnt have lotsa nonsense hahahha.. but i thought that he was somewhat shocked?? at the low noise levels surrounding us 6 girls! i mean, to us it wasnt weird right?like normal la! plus he was the only guy.lonely!awww.. 1guy:6girls. just like how cookie is when we head to parkway!
some guys would feel pretty lucky :X haha.

then :
sang bday song + gave presents at the fountain :)
took pictures :)
went shopping for kenji's shirt :)
home :)

sorry if the entry's short, had a long day tdy and my eyes are drooping like those of a bulldog. and they're developing dark eye rings like those of a panda. i might as well be a gorilla.

and i was told that MY BIRTHDAY falls during the chem spa prac period before promos.

so no celebrating for me.

oh gosh. i really have NO LIFE.

im down again, yet i havent risen.
ive fallen again, but im not done.
im sad again, but when have i been contented?
im hungry for more, but when will i be satisfied?

9 more weeks. im counting down.
dont ask me why, dont pull me down.

extreme disappointment i feel in me
nothing can explain.
but there is no one else that i
can put that full blame

im not saying i should
im not saying i would
but dont let me stray away
from the route i should take
cos if i do follow
you know what itll be
what will come and loom ahead
is what i dont desire

i want to feel that feeling
the feeling of satisfaction
aspire
inspire
what will i do?
perspire.

don't disturb me.

i know i screwed midyrs up.
dont let me stray cos im easily influenced.
dont let me be prey to the vicious eyes of the world.
i have to prove myself. did you see it?? did you see it?? i was watching the news just now minding my own business trying to read some geog (haha cos of live earth,but nothing went inside tho) and they were covering the plaza sing live earth event!! and they were showing the postcards with all the msgs AND I THOUGHT I SAW THE CARDS THAT POLLY AND I WROTE!!! cos i saw the huge smiley face that polly drew on her card! and my squiggly handwritting that would put whoever who invented penmanship to shame.the shot ended at polly's card!!but mine was to her left!! so ours were the last two cards in the shot!!!strategic positions!! YAY!

i totally regret my bad handwriting.

this is REVOLUTIONARY. today's 070707.very nice date.those babies born today sure are lucky.and while people were celebrating the earth and getting married on this very special day, what was i doing?
i did PW.
i saw so many ppl carrying their gowns and bouquets around.then polly and i were joking abt ppl rushing to the church near PS.cos seriously so many ppl were carrying bouquets!and there were wedding cars blah blah.hahah,then it got us thinking. just imagine, in 10 yrs time we're all 27.
imagine yourself coming home from work.you take your keys,open the mailbox and what do you see?this extravagantly decorated card.
SCENTED.

"you are cordially invited to the wedding of ..."

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i cant imagine. tho i know edwin would have 4 children HAHHA right cookie? we even named them for him alr.

"daddy daddy, i got my results back.i show you my report book"
"you JOKER. your results very good ar. GG."

the countdown on the screen shows 0days 0 hrs 3mins 36secs.
"when they say the polar caps are melting, they're not exagerating."
"if every US household replaced every virgin paper towels with 100% recycled paper towels, we would be saving 528 million gallons or water" or sth like that.
this one's from the tobey maguire clip.i think the way they approached the matter and publicised the event was really smart.and the way they used holograms and lasers is smart!
SOS. ANSWER THE CALL.
OH GOSH IT JUST STARTED! LIVE EARTH! 24 HRS! im not sleeping.they're starting with tokyo now.AL GORE!the inconvenient truth.did u know he was the one who started this live earth movement?liveearth.org
i think i shall take up some environmental thing in the future.

anw,polly and i made a pact to wear GREEN today. well, the closest i got to green was this checkered blouse,green and orange.oh well, i thought it was green.polly said it was blue.i still think it's green,polly. and polly won't take a picture with me.and i saw ppl wearing green too!my mum saw this woman who wore green from top to toe! must have been some green activist.

see, polly's wearing green :)

"fly away.just believe what's in your heart." the lyrics from the song on tv now.and i like the hey you song especially for live earth.it really touches your heart don't you think?the thought of everyone coming together to pull this good cause off really shows how committed ppl are. and the fact that many have got into the action shows how much we really care.

but i wonder,if they're holding a concert for the earth,then aren't they damaging it in a way?cos they need electricity and stuff just to hold it.how does the song and all relate to saving the earth?they aren't raising funds or anything right? RIGHT?

and there was this huge tent outside PS, the outdoor staging of the live earth event.so me and polly WE WENT TO PLEDGE OURSELVES TO SAVE THE EARTH!cool.AND WE WERE THE 2ND AND 3RD IN THE WHOLE OF SINGAPORE TO PLEDGE!i could have been the first la,if the pen they provided didn't run out of ink.haha. i was using that pen before you came polly :P

anw,we went to carrefour.and had a good time rounding the place, i mean it's good that we unwind sometimes right? but seriously NO LIFE.(polly :P) i actually had a good time at carrefour of all places.cos we were joking and joking and joking and joking.now i think i dont have a life writing this super long post..

notice that im writing abt everything BUT PW.

they're showing sydney now.there's this singer singing into a loudspeaker.now i know how they make that effect.i'm waiting for rihanna and her umbrella at tokyo.
anw,while i was on the way home, there was this guy who was asking me to complete some survey on the singaporean lifestyle for him.he was overly friendly tho.freaked me out abit.and so today, i learnt a very important lesson.

just as a precaution,esp if you're a girl, don't fill in your contacts in all honesty.
so i faked my number.
and possibly my name too.
HAHA.sorry to whoever it was just now.

let me enjoy the rest of my weekends for now.once monday rolls around, we'll talk abt results.

resolve the resoluted.don't leave it hanging.

tokyo now.i don't get what he's screaming. 'drive of the party'??

deal with it. Friday, 6 July 2007 11:29 pm

so we're all left in suspense huh?i really appreciate the fact that our teachers are taking their time to mark our papers, cos it gives me more time to enjoy the days that go by without the news of any results.not that i'm looking forward to it anyway.i agree with polly that somehow, going back to how we were mugging and doing tutorials is difficult. the pattern and cycle has been lost, and what stands in the future still looms ahead.you've got a choice,make use of that choice and stretch it to the limit.cos you've still got time to prove to yourself, don't waste it.

anw,let's talk abt sch.GUMMIE had jellies!in weird flavours tho. so i had the green apple,lucky!polly & edwin got the real disgusting booger, and charmaine tried dirt!there was soap,sardines,vomit etc etc.haha.what did lilin & rr taste?polly actually said it tasted good!omg.we were laughing our heads off in the canteen!like we owned the place.

Going back to emo stuff.i miss writing gp essays.A LOT.i like them.writing gp essays is like luxury to me, i dunno why. i feel that tingling sense of assurance and confidence when i write,tho i spend 5days on it oh gosh.i've really lost it.but i think of all the subjects we have, i like gp the most.and geog.sometimes i wonder if i should have joined arts instead.but it's too late for it now though.actually there's nothing much to write since today was pretty monotonous (like most days actually) and there isn't much to talk about.im just blogging to pass time.plus my mood just turned sour :(

from diy's mouth:
"there was a girl who dare not venture
she lived every day in monotony
the emotions that run through her you can't quite capture
cos she knew was just, lonely.
then one day she came across
the secret key that she had lost
running through the golden meadows
she shrieked,"I found what i will now need"
so what actually happened next that follows
wait for my entries, it will need to be complete."

shall start a chain story.

depressed. Tuesday, 3 July 2007 8:12 pm

you know how sometimes you expect too much and it just backfires and all things that can go wrong does go wrong?like, what did i do to deserve this? retribution?? FOR WHAT? sheesh, well it just did! i got back that one paper where you can really score, and what did i do? screw it up.of all things that could happen to the wonders of the mathemathical world that goes on playing in diy's head, i had to screw it up. just one paper and i get this nonsense grades? don't go harping on the rest.you may think, hey!it wasn't THAT bad,at least you passed! but the weight that i carry on my shoulders to prove myself worthy of even being in vj is just too overwhelming sometimes, and although some may be happy if they had what i got, i'm not. tho im very proud of everyone getting great grades, it didn't help but somehow, kinda added to me feeling the inability to really show what i can do.im useless!thanks for comforting me,but i cannot accept this.there are people who expect me to do well and the shame that i feel when i saw that circled number would be replayed over and over again in my head. the girl gone bad. i heard those cries of jubilation all around me today,had tried to take part in the celebrations, but no, i can't. sorry. over-achiever?kiasu?or just too much? i may at times show you the front that screams,"i'm ok, don't worry abt me!" or "no it's nothing, there's a first time for everything!", but it really hides the fact that it pierces me deep,and the extreme disappointment i feel cannot be reimbursed cos i know i didn't do my best at all for MYEs.im hoping for at least a D for the rest, don't hope too much diy, disappointment may pull you down if you hope too much.i know i do my tutorials, but what kind of person studies at the last minute? am i stretching it too much?blowing it out of proportion? EXXAGERATING? there was no DISCIPLINE at all. there is no one else to be blamed, but me. let me crawl into my shell and disengage for a moment from reality, i don't feel too good. the emotions are coming, so just give me awhile.

my hopes are on gp, tho i somehow don't feel that strong confident feeling abt it. why? why? let's not talk abt the rest.

diy-lightful! Sunday, 1 July 2007 6:37 pm

i am happy!!! or am i?? hahaha. just think. DEDICATION. hours spent straining your eyes at the screen knowing that you're doing damage. but then again, when am i this free after tuesday comes??nevermind.
anw,i'd like to mention someone who has helped me do whatever this blog needs to be prepped and pretty, she must have zonked outta space by agreeing to help me. ok la it's this person who's beside me making sure i acknowledge her..sheesh! so thick skinned!!
ok la it's NADIAH, my sis who has really lost her mind helping me cos i was bossing her around with what i wanted PERFECT. but that doesn't show that she's a saint or anything HAHA :P joking.
til then, MISS ME!!
haha.

there's a first time for everything 5:11 pm

so finally, i have one. after such a long time, i have one. does it show what a country bumpkin i am? gosh, for once i feel as though i've achieved something in the IT related world. For someone as IT illiterate as me, it's a great achievement! not to mention that i only started going on MSN this year too... it all boils down to me being DEPRIVED. now, if u don't mind, i've gotta catch some shut eye after spending hours creating this. my tone sounds condescending and unfriendly,yes, but i assure you i'll sound better the next time my fingers touch the keyboard.